Thinking of Committing Suicide?
Please Think Again! 
By Evangelist Diana Gray
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     Thinking of Committing Suicide?    If this is what you are thinking, please talk to a Pastor or someone of the Clergy before you go any further.  Email me if you don't have anyone and we will try to get someone to you.   I do know God's Word and what it says about Suicide.  Please read this and think harder about it.

     Please think of me as your Spiritual Sister and I am writing this message with all the love that I have.  (I am almost in tears as I sit here trying to write this seeing the pain in your heart.)  If someone is making you take your life by forcing you then that is another story.   If you do it yourself because you just want do give up then you MIGHT be separating yourself from the presence of God. (Specially if you are walking away Spiritually Blasphiming the Holy Spirit.  that is the Unpardnable Sin.) 
   Separating yourself from God for all eternity in Heaven is what you COULD be doing if you kill yourself you risk not being in Heaven.  Now please read this whole thing before you jump to any conclusions and wrong ideas about what I am saying.  I am "not" saying that just by killing yourself alone you will go to Hell.  It is a lot more complicated than that.

   Let's talk for a few minutes ok? You see Murdering someone or yourself is a very serious matter and carries a serious consequence.  Don't be fooled into thinking that you can just give up on life and end it's not that easy!!! Think hard and long on this matter.  You just might find yourself in a terrrible place called Hell.

     First of all let's define Murder and killing Ok?  The dictionary reads that, MURDER...."The unlawful and malicious or PREMEDITATED killing of a person. And KILLING reads, " to destroy life."  (The dictionary is a good tool to use for referance.)

     Let's illustrate this for a minute....Now if you're driving down the road and your car was to Kill someone........that would be under Kill but not Murder because it was an accident. You didn't mean to hurt anyone, so it was an accident.  If you did it on purpose or had thought about it in advance about killing someone even with your car than that would be Murder...Understand the difference? Murder, is something you do intentionlally on purpuse.

    Now to the original Exodus 20:13 Ten Commandment meaning was NOT..." thou shalt kill" but....."thou shalt not Commit Murder!"( It got lost in the Bible Translation.)

    In Matthew 5:22 Jesus said,"Whosoever is angry with his brother without a cause shall be in danger of the Judgment." If someone all of a sudden killed themself.....was that Murder or Killing? 

    "Premeditated"  Suicide is Murder  just the same as killing unborn babies as a birth control method is Murder.  Shooting someone with a gun Murder.  Killing ones self by walking away from what God teaches us in His Word that it IS SIN.   It .....IS SIN!  We really have to admit that.   If a person PREMEDITATES themselves into committing the sin of Thou shalt not kill or Murder as the original Word said than that is walking away from God.  How far they walk away from God is the Question?   You can't just give up, commit suicide and at the last minute repent saying you're sorry for killing yourself.  Think about this matter long and hard! It is not that easy for a born-again believer to do it, anymore than an unbeliever can.

    The point I am making here is, how far away from God are they walking and what at their last thoughts upon death.  If a BORN-AGAIN  believer in Jesus Christ chooses to give up on the world and themselves,  then possibly they have given up fully on God and Blasphemed the Holy Spirit in their mind and heart just prier to the moment of death.  This is a serious matter for a Christian Believer to do.  You can't just be a full Born-again believer and easially commit this SIN of Suicide.   It's not that easy!!!! 

   I seriously question the real born-again relationship of anyone who takes their life calling themself a Born-again Christian believer if they kill themselves.  A true Born-again Christian who really is born-again can't simply do this without suffering real mental torment over the very idea.  Those of us who are truly born-again can't easily commit suicide because of our strong belief in the saving grace of Jesus Christ.

    Being an Evangelist I see too many people outside of churches as well as inside of churches claiming to be ....Born-again believers when they really don't have the true understanding of what that really means! Why do you think when I make an alter call for someone in the audieance to accept Jesus Christ, unsaved people come forward? It is becuase there was someone in the audience inside of the church who was not saved.  Some people who were born and raised in churches believe that they are Born-again believers just because they are sitting inside of a church building.  NOT SO!

    In John 3:3 Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, Verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God.

     Being Born-again or Spiritual Rebirth like Jesus said, means personally asking Jesus to come into your heart to personally accept His Salvation for yourself.  It doesn't matter if you were raised in a Christian home or's your personal relationship with Jesus and truly asking Him into your heart to be your Savior.  If you haven't done it before, ask Jesus now to come into your heart and save you from the SIN of Suicide and the thoughts that might be going through your head and heart.  He IS THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN SAVE YOU!

    If a person was killing themselves and the moment before death they repented and asked God to forgive them that they WOULD BE FORGIVEN!  Because they most
definitely would be forgiven if they truly repented.  Most likely if a believer fell down in sadness and depression enough to kill themselves but at the last minute repented...God would forgive them. Yes he would! can't plan on killing yourself, Premeditating the very act of suicide and PLAN on the repenting at the very moment of death .....COUNTING on still making it to Heaven.  This is scarry and serious to do for anyone, let alone a Christian Believer.  I hope you make it to Heaven but no matter how hard things are down here, Hell is far worse if your plan doen't work!  Why even take the chance?  You are precious and I know God doesn't want you to die with SIN on your hands now does He?  Remember if you are a luke warm Christian He will spew you out of His mouth! 

     Rev. 3:15 I know thy works, that thou art neither cold nor hot: I would thou wert cold or hot. So then because thou are lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spew thee out of my mouth.

     Some Christians believe that you can't loose your Salvation....some say once saved always saved...well I don't.  This is why....


    Matt. 12:31-33 Wherefore I say unto you, All manner of sin and blasphemy shall be forgiven unto men: but the blasphemy against the Holy Ghost shall not be forgiven unto men.  And whosoever speaketh a word against the Son of man, it shall be forgiven him: but whosoever speaketh against the Holy Ghost, it shall not be forgiven him, neither in this world, neither in the world to come. Eithere make the tree good, and his fruit good; or else make the tree corrupt, and his fruit corrupt; for th tree is known by his fruit.

Hebrews 6:4-9 For it is impossible for those who were once enlightened, and have tasted of the heavenly gift, and were made partakers of the Holy Ghost, and have tasted the good world of God, and the powers of the world to come, If they shall fall away, to renew them again unto rerpentance; seeing they crucify to themselves the Son of God afresh, and put him to an open shame.  For the earth which drinketh in the rain that cometh oft upon it, and bringeth forth herbs meet for them by whom it is dressed, rerceiveth ble4ssing from God:  But that which beareth throns and briers is rerjected, and is nigh unto cursing; whose end is to be burned. But, beloved, we are persuaded better things of you, and things that accompany salvation, throug we thus speak.

   I believe that a person can loose their Salvation if they walk away from God. This is a Theology viewpoint.  Some church doctrines may see it differently that is all, but I have to speak from my heart and what I believe.  I will not argue over this point with anyone, because it depend upon what type of church that you go to whether your church doctrines believe it or not as I believe on this matter.   I talk to people in peace, love and harmony not arguments and discord.  That would not be of God, now would it?  I speak from my heart and my beliefs.  I work Inter-denominationally with all Christian Churches striveing to give the Salvationof Jesus Christ. However you feel about this issue, please understand that sucide is wrong!

     We should really be looking up to Jesus and seeing people through His eyes full of love.  I love people enough to try to save them from Suicide.  So I wrote that paper and it has....yes has saved many a life.  If I made someone stop and think before they committed Suicide than it was worth it. 

Now let us look at Hell for a minute:

   The only alternative to being with God is being with the Devil Satan, and he hates you.  Satan wants you there with him because he hates you.  Can you imagine looking into the horrible evil face of Satan  for all eternity. Remember all sickness and disease comes from Satan the devil. Just think what he is capable of doing in a dark black place where there is not presence of God.  The sheer torture and suffering he has done on earth is nothing compared with what he is capable of doing to someone down there.  All of the hurt on earth you are feeling now can't compare to the hurt he can inflict down there in Hell. If someone had a loved one die this way, you really don't know if they asked the Lord to forgive them just before death set in. They may be in Heaven!

     People will be in for so much more hurt then they had on earth if they do go to Hell, and it will last for ....all eternity.  It will never stop hurting for all eternity.  Death is either a release of the spirit to go to Heaven to be with the Father or to hell to be with the evils and pain of Satan.  You see no matter how bad you feel now, you will feel worse then and for ...all eternity. 

     You know that I am speaking the truth to you don't you?  Now take a serious moment to consider just what I am saying.  I am not going to lie about this and white wash the truth no matter how painful it is to hear it.  I hope I am saying it with all of the "love" that I a can though with tears in my eyes as I write this.

    Precious child of God the Father, do you know anything about Hell? Have you ever really thought about it or even considered it?   This isn't to scare you but to make you think harder about what you are thinking of doing.  Maybe then you will change your mind about suicide, and why living is better no matter how painful.  You will want to go to Heaven believe me. 

     Matthew 8:12 reads, "But the children of the kingdom shall be cast out into outer darkness: there shall be weeping and gnashing of teeth."

     Matthew 25:41 reads, "Then shall he say also unto them on the left hand, Depart from me,  ye cursed, into everlasting fire, prepared for the devil and his angels:"

  Matthew 25:46 reads, "And these shall go away into everlasting punishment: but the righteous into life eternal."

  2 Thessalonians 1:9 reads, "Who shall be punished with everlasting destruction from the presence of the Lord, and from the glory of his power:"

     Revelation 19:20 reads, "And the beast was taken, and with him the false prophet that wrought miracles before him, with which he deceived them that had received the mark of the beast, and them that worshipped his image.  These both were cast alive into a lake of fire burning with brimstone."

     In Hades there is tormenting pain, agony, and the tremendous remorse of regret.  What makes all of the torment that much worse is that all those in Hades will be able to know and see those enjoying Paradise.

     People will have complete recollection memory.  The senses like touching, hearing, seeing, will be fully conscious, enabling people to be aware of their surroundings and existence.  They are able to visualize their bleak, morose surroundings. They can perceive feelings, experience taste, and hear their own voices crying out in the sheer torture of agony and regret.

     Regretting the life that they wasted not accepting and living for the Lord.  Regretting all of the opportunities they had to give up their sinful ways, instead of accepting Jesus as their savior.

     People will feel embittered  over all of the lost opportunities to have paid attention, and listened to the Word of God. The failed occasions to have accepted Jesus Christ as their Savior and Lord had passed them by.

     How many times were they told about the good news of Jesus? How many times were they told that they could receive the free gift of salvation by following and believing in Him?  Yet even people in churches have not all given their self (pride, and will) to the Lord.  Making Jesus Lord of there very lives.  Jesus was their savior but not Lord of their lives!  Self-willed pride propelled them into the dark dungeon of Hell.  They would not give up the will part of them to Jesus and it cost them dearly.

     Matthew 7:21 reads, "Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven."

    They did not give Him their all, their whole self.  "Pride," selfish pride keeps so many people on the wrong road and missing the mark of heaven.

     Revelation 3:15-16 reads, "I know thy works, that thou are neither cold nor hot:  I would thou wert cold or hot. So then because thou are lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spew thee out of my mouth."

     How much stronger of a warning can we have from Godís Holy Word, the bible? Scripture can be pretty direct, not wasting words in giving us a choice to accept or reject the truth of Jesus Christ.  It will be completely impossible to change destinies.  People wonít be able to escape into a magnificent Heavenly Paradise, once a person finds themselves in terrible, depressing place like Hell

     Don't you see dear, by killing yourself you are breaking God's commandment, "Thou shalt not kill or........commit murder." Don't do it, God wants you to live.  It is His Will that you live and I promise you that in 5 years from now this will all be a bad memory.  Please if you won't listen to me than listen to someone close to you.  I care so very much honey and I know that living is better.  Besides the "Rapture of Jesus" is about to happen.  Do you want to miss seeing Jesus? He is coming soon you know.  Don't miss going to Heaven because of hurt feelings.  My special friend  all this pain in your heart will lift and there will be happier days ahead.   Please don't give up, I care about you!!!!  I really, really do!


Here is a Special Prayer for you

     Heavenly Father please hear this prayer because it comes from my heart with all of the love that I have.  Your special child here is hurting and badly hurting.  The pain is so very real and the sadness is so terribly deep.  Depressing sadness and sorrow is being felt in their heart.  Lord you are the healer, the wonderful comforter.  Please ease this pain and give them a reason to live.  Show them by your Word that you do love and care for them.  Lift this pain and replace it with your peace, gentle soothing peace. 

     Take these problems and show them that they can have joy again.  Help them to take back what Satan has stolen from them.  Let them see the real enemy here is the devil, not the ones who have hurt them.  Whatever the problems of life have been let them see things in a new and better way. Open their eyes and reveal your love, your caring and concern. 

     I know you want them in Heaven with you. I know that you care about all of this hurt and I thank you for giving them the Salvation of Jesus Christ.  Please renew a right spirit within them and give them your peace. Let them see Jesus in all of this that He is reaching out to hug them.  Lord they "need" a hug badly!  Just hug them in your warm loving arms.  Let them feel your Holy presence as they close their eyes and sit back relaxing all of their tired sore muscles. Let the room they are sitting be filled with your angels and your gentle soothing peace. Lord I ask all of this in Jesus' name Amen.


     Write to me or talk to a Pastor but please talk to someone.  No one has to know what you say to the Clergy.  Come on you can do it, I know you are stronger then you think you are.  I believe in you! I can sense you in my spirit reading this and I believe in you.  You are Special and you deserve to live.  Give yourself another chance! PLEASE? God doesn't want you to die.  He loves you honey, far more than you will ever realize!  Give yourself another chance.  It will get better, you'll see!

God Bless you dear, Your Sister in Christ, Diana Gray

Diana Gray Ministries

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